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Sunday, 19 April 2009

Social Networking.

I have a confession:
I am a social networking site wh*re. (Naughty word =O)

I have a MySpace, facebook, YouTube, bebo, xanga, wordpress and some others which I don't tend to use anymore.

Yes, two of those are blogs but they're also ways to communicate with other people; so I think of them as social networking sites. My blogs I guess could be considered not to be social networking sites because, my wordpress, nobody knows I have; I think it's nice to have a sort of 'secret' blog so then you truly can spill your innermost feelings. That way, other people know you feel the same as them, but they don't know who it is so can't properly judge.

If I think about these sites in thought, I guess I think they're quite weird.
As if you need proof that you have friends;
--"Oh yes! Look at all my friends! I don't know half of them but still! I have more than you"
--"Look at all my photos, actual proof that I do know some of the people I claim to know!"

Just doesn't seem as appealing when you think of it that way to me. Which is why I try not to think of it in-depth that often just in case I have the urge to delete them, which I would almost instantly regret?

Monday, 02 March 2009

My Music Playlist.

My music playlist consists mostly of some of the most depressing music I, myself, have heard. I prefer sad lyrics to happy ones, as to me they show more emotion and took more emotion in writing them. I’m sure that songs with upbeat lyrics took time and patience to write as well, but to me songs like “Samson” by Regina Spektor, make so much more of an impact.
My top five songs
1.       The Reason by Hoobastank
2.       Closer by Joshua Radin
3.       Free Fallin’ by John Mayer
4.       Paint your Target by Fightstar
5.       Over your Head by The Fray

These change constantly, so in about a month they’ll have most likely changed.

The Reason by Hoobastank
Favourite lyric: ‘I’m sorry that I hurt you, that’s something I must live with everyday, and all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away’
-          The reason (haha ;D used the song name there) it’s my favourite lyric out of the song is because, to me, it shows that sometimes the only way you have ends up hurting someone you love. It doesn’t technically mean that you’re a bad person, but that sometimes you can’t help but made a decision that affects someone’s life that way.

Closer by Joshua Radin
Favourite lyric: ‘Photographs and brightly coloured paper are your mask you were in this caper’
-          This has to be one of my favourite lyrics I’ve ever heard, it describes perfectly how some people feel the need to ‘hide’ behind a pretty smile and bright eyes, it’s the ‘mask’ that they wear to hide what they’re going through. Plus to me, in the song (youtube it ;D) the music flows really well and the rhyming in this line is just perfect.

Free Fallin’ by Joshua Radin
Favourite lyric: ‘And all the bad boys standing in the shadows, and the good girls at home with broken hearts’
-          In a way, I will admit, I don’t agree with this lyric. I feel that guys are blamed too much for ‘heartbreaking’, I’ll admit you hear of it much more that girls have their hearts broken rather than guys, but mostly because not many guys talk about their feelings! Anyway, back to the song lyric. I like it because it shows a cliché love story, girl loves boy, and boy leaves girl, girls sad. Typical but most girls my age love that kind of thing and I’m not honestly that different.

Paint your Target by Fightstar
Favourite lyric: ‘I’m sorry enough to tell you that I’m okay and I’m never gunna see you again’
-          Euch, I can’t describe why I like this lyric but it’s one of the few in this song that always makes me think. It’s as if I can actually imagine the scene of a guy kind of screaming at his ex or something, that he is alright, and that he never wants to see her again. I can picture it really vividly.

Over Your Head by The Fray
Favourite lyric: ‘And suddenly I become a part of your past, I'm becoming the part that don't last, I'm losing you and it’s effortless.’
-          It just seems so real to me, it seems to explain how easy it is to fade into somebody’s past, how it seems almost ‘effortless’. No matter how much somebody means to you, or you mean to them, it can still happen. You can still just drift away from them without even realising it.
Letters.

The one who risked something
Dear You,
                Thank you for showing me what I could be thank you for showing me that I didn’t have to make all the effort all the time. You showed me that anyone who didn’t accept me for who I am is not worth my time. Thanks for always being true to me, when I wasn’t even true to myself. I’m sorry for messing with you and for being a damn straight bitch about your feelings, I’m sorry that I didn’t take them into consideration even though at the time I thought I did. Thank you for still being my friend after all that I’ve done to you. You should hate me by now, but you’re too good of a person to do that.

The one who made me fall in love
Dear You,
                Thank you for showing me what love truly is, thank you for making me smile so much my jaw actually aches. You make me feel special, and you’ve helped me over come my self esteem issues. Like every typical teenage girl, I’m insecure about my looks, and I know that it’s unhealthy how bad my self esteem is, but you’re helping me through it. You never ceased to amaze me with your words; you make everything you say seem poetic somehow. I never believed in ‘falling in love’ until I met you. I used to want to run away, when something went wrong I’d run. But you gave me a reason to stay. Being with you has made me believe in myself, believe that if I really want something it’s up to me and only me to get it. You’re encouraging, inspiring, loving and you make me want to be better for you.

The one who never left my side
Dear You,
                You’re the one who never left my side through anything, even when we grew apart for a while I always knew you’d be right at the other end of the phone if I needed someone to help. You’ve been there for me through everything, and I couldn’t imagine not having you in my life, my best friend. You’ve been there for me when everyone left, you stayed when everyone ran. You’ve shared all my favourite memories, and have laughed and cried with me at my past mistakes. Thanks to you, I’m my own person and you’ll always be there to back me up whatever happens. You’ll tell me to shut the hell up if I’m wrong and will admit if I’m right. You understand that I’m scared admitting my true feelings to people, worried that as soon as they know they’ll leave. You know that I live for now and only now; I don’t like planning too far ahead just in case everything changes again. Thank you for staying by me through everything and thank you for remaining the same person as you always have been.

Anonymous letters. To say thank for to the four people who’ve made such an impact on my life.